There is a common agreement on that: opportunity is created by yourself, not given by others. Although I know it, I still lost myself when I go along the same route after you finally. Maybe all what I have done would seem a little crazy in other’s eyes, for I also think it’s crazy. Sometimes, I would show a mercy on myself, which may be the most tragic thing in the world I think.

I don’t know how people think of destiny, if it does have a kind of statement to destiny, now that we are doomed to have no chance to bloom, then, why would the god make such a cruel joke on me? Really existing in a certain field around me, but just couldn’t be as what I expect.

人们都说，机会不是别人给的而是自己创造的，这话一点没错。今天，虽然失算了，但我还有努力弥补失算后所带来的些许遗憾，确实，机会是创造出来了，可，跟着机会的尾巴走的我，跟着跟着我就跟丢了……

站在车水马龙的街头，内心映衬着周遭的潮湿和阴霾，失落落的。不知自己该何去何从，只是还傻傻地执着着。养成了不属于自己的习惯；也习惯了这种未果的执着……，我想我应该是快把自己完全给弄丢了，想想，倒有点觉得自己就是“行尸走肉”最好的诠释，一个没有灵魂的躯壳在四处游荡着。

内心在不断的思忖着，但终究思忖不出个头绪。一次次的幻想和美好在现实面前都显得这般的苍白和无力，不知，是不是到了该认命的时候了，咳……